my 2nd recital

9th of october was my 2nd recital in UCSI...

i played..
september from the seasons by tchaikovsky.
a very short piece in ternary form...

one day be4 my recital day...i was soooo scared til my brain cramp....i kept talking to my frens...frens after frens..to take my mind away from recital....

on tat day itself..i didnt feel as nervous as the day be4..and i can even eat ONE PLATE OF RICE!!!! last sem...i can even eat one bite of rice.....i've improved!! kekekekeke.....

when i was behind the stage...i saw my teacher going into the recital hall....i ran to her.....

Ms. Son : why are u here???? u shud be back there......it's ur turn soon!!!!!
eli: teacher..i think i've forgotten all the notes
Ms. Son : nvm..go back..it's gonna be ur turn soon....
eli : but... teacher...
Ms. Son : just go back...dun worry

so..i walked back.....

i was the 2nd one...Wee Kuan was first...

when he came down.... i dare not go up...

my frens said..eli..ur turn now...u can go up d...

i was like...o..
but i din move. hahahahahahahahahahah

they're like...eli...ur turn adi...

i was like..o. i know...

then i suddenly woke up..woke up from blankness.. OH SHIT!!!! MY TURN!! I SHUD BE WALKING UP HALF A MINUTE AGO...WAT THE .. AM I DOING HERE????

and i walked up the stage..

saw a lot of audiences....

bow

sat down

and the music flew thru my brain to my fingers and the kick started...



i think i played almost twice faster than the tempo that i was supposed to play... Ms Son was like....why did u play so fast just now?????

not really happy with my recital....

but i'm still glad i did not forget my notes halfway thru the music...



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it's been a hectic week... rushing up and down...
hardly see my bro...almost half a week i din get to see my brother....miss him like hell
my dad was admitted to the hospital and i din even have the time to visit him at all...
i think i'm a terrible daughter and a terrible sister
i reach home around 11 to 12 pm every night for the sake of practicing....and leave for Sedaya early in the morning...
i'm sleep-deprived

9 out of 10 ppl who saw me in church over the weekend say i look pale...like death...corpse playing the violin...

and i still hv tons of things to do...
study for history exam
do history term paper but i hv no resources at all
practice piano..exam soon
practice violin...dun want to put Mr. Prody down
practice voice..assessment this friday.....

..i wish there's sth to reboost my energy....

sth serious but lame

guys..

I NEED A PLANNER!!!

so that...

1. i can know wat's the date today, tomoro, yesterday and everyday

2. i can know which day of the week i'm in

3. i can know which month of the year i'm in

4. i can know which year i'm in

5. i can keep track of everyone's birthday..and i mean it. EVERYONE..
yeah..i'm gonna say hi to every frens and ask them , may i know ur bdate????

6. i can write down wat i bring everyday to Sedaya in the morning and make sure i bring them back at the end of the day, ESP MY VIOLIN
so that i dun need quinnie to remind me everyday...

7. i can remember Jason's birthday when it's the day of his birthday.

8. i can keep track of every important dates...
(i) masterclass....so that Melissa doesnt hv to remind me everytime
(ii) group class...so that my teacher doesnt hv to remind me eveyrtime
(iii) exams and quizes...so that Melissa doesn't have to remind me everytime

9. i can plan things ahead and not do things last minute

i think tats all

i think i need to rewrite my 2nd sentence..

it shud be..

I NEED A LIGHT-WEIGHT PLANNER!!!!!!!

the end

lost

7 more days to my recital....

and i'm still lost

dunno what to play

i hv to send in my recital request form by 12 noon friday

but it's still blank now..

i dunno wat to do...

oh..maybe i shud pray....

i reallly dunno what to play...

haydn?? tchaikovsky???

i really regret studying music... i regret....

i dun enjoy at all...i think i'm suffering everday.....