1st week of class tat ends with a horror....

1st day of classes....... is DREADFUL!
1. theory early in the morning
2. piano ped is so suckingly dreadful!!!!! we hv to do a presentation the next day, 8am. it's jus the 1st day of class......and i'm grouped with some NOOBS!!
3. orchestra at night.....
i was worst than a zombie when i reach home

the rest of the week was equally as dreadful as the 1st...

but..lucky there's zhing hong to clear my gloomy days up......by laughing all the way home.... and by imitating crows and frogs on the way home.....

friday...as usual..history....this time..it's WORST!!!
8 to 9.30 history
10 to 12 masterclass
12 to 1 aural
cant eat...

briefing ended 1 hour earlier..so.we had 11 to 12 free.... jean, melissa, quinnie and me..decided to hv pan mee.... we went all the way there..went in, saw the crowd..we decided to wait. at 11.40..there were still soooo many tables waiting for food...we cancelled order and went back..in order not to be mark as late for aural...

so...

we din get to eat at alll..

then..i plan to go quinnie's house for lunch...

on the way home..i received a phone call from dad....

he needs me to go hospital...to drive the car back in case he cant..he's on the way to hospital now....

i went hospital..went to the cafeteria and had lunch..waited from 2 to 4...he came to me and say..i need to be admitted...doc need me to be in hospital in case i hv heart attack...

shit..i cant control my tears.....

so..i did the payment and stuffs while he went to the ward with the nurse...

drove the car home...

cried all the way home.

reached home around 5.30..and slept til 6.30...

woke in blurness...i tot i was in hell.

i was jus so scared....

then..washed my face..prepare myself to look cool and calm be4 aunt and mom comes home...

i felt like shit...kept rushing to the toilet to cry..

and must look cool and calm in front my mom..

and ppl keep calling me and ask...i hv to control my voice so it wont tremble...

Oh God...

i feel so lost...

my brain cant think..
cant function....

lucky quinnie came to teman me the whole afternoon today...

if not..i would hv broke down mentally...