depressed...

frens.. i might stay in Malaysia, and do my degree in Sedaya. shock lerr..i lagi shock and sad and depressed. i'm sure u all know how much i wish to leave my dad and go to another country...

well..for music..i hv not much choice unlike engineering.. i hv limited choice for music..
1. NUS
2. Taiwan
3. Sedaya

i cancel out Taiwan. i rather stay in Malaysia than to go Taiwan. All in Mandarin! walao..i can die lor...

i dun mind studying in Sedaya. i just cant bear staying with my parents, esp my dad. i'm really going to hv serious mental breakdown... i'm so stressed and depressed living with him until i cant eat at all.. i eat means i'll vomit. i'm getting thinner and thinner.. i dunno wat's happening to me.. nothing can save me..only my violin can rescue me from food.. only my violin can help me to escape my meals so i can skip all my meals without feeling hungry at all.

hv u ever imagine...standing on a cliff..let the wind blow blow ur hair all around ur face.. and enjoy the wind..and stare downwards..looking at the height.. it's so nice and calm and peaceful as u know u'll be going to somewhere safe and better than Earth..