cleared my room today... it looks soooo tidy now... frens who come up to my room often will know how it's like when it's untidy..

my study table before i cleaned up the mess...

after cleaning....

geng lerrrrr......

then..i cleaned up my bookshelves... and i saw one big bunch of these....

my SAM's notes!!!!!! notes that i did not sell nor throw cuz i tot i was going to study engineering and these might help me for references....

all my hard work..all my notes...

my heart broke apart when i saw this.... periodic table... i stuffed it backed onto the shelve.. i just cant throw it away..all my memories...i cant throw it away....
then i thought...maybe i shudn't even study music.. maybe i shud jus stick back to engineering.. why did i change field?? wat made me change field?? it has all gone to waste.. all my hardwork.... all my dead brain cells due to aggresive use cuz of stupid specialist maths..

miss taylors soooo sooo much..miss SAM and all my frens there.... it was tough but it was greaat..great great experience.... i dunno why in the end i chose music...

wasted......

my hardwork..

studied sooo damn freaking hard...

nearly died of specialist maths....

jus so that i can get a scholarship to study music?? ridiculous...

anyway..i still want to sell my spec maths and physics text book.. anybody wants pls contact me..