music is not fun after all

I'm SOOOOOOOO stressed up!!!!! this is the first time in my life i got so stressed by music. i nvr knew i can be so stress with music. Preparing for NUS audition is not easy at all.. ppl who go for the audition will sure be very very good. Their requirements are very high. They wont simply accept ppl... this is wat i got from uncle Dominic who taught there be4..

This few days, i wake at 9am, play straight til 12am or 1 am. there'll be a few hours in betweeen when i'll rest. my finger tips are all in great pain for constant knocking on the piano. I always do things last min. i hv to memorize 5 pieces in such a short time... good for u, eli...for being so last min. u could hv prepared earlier.

i hv to send my DVD on wednesday d..or thursday. i havent start recording yet. my etude is still like shit...still improving. havent reach perfection yet. o my gosh...oh..someone pls help me....

my dad ask me to apply for UWA tooo for music course. Maybe i shud aim more on UWA and not NUS. or else, i'll get pyscho.

after this few days, i feel tat..maybe studying music is not easy after all..there'll be lots of deadlines and pieces to complete within the deadline. it's not easy. studying is lots more easier. i rather sit and study calculus or trigo...better than studying music man... practice non stop doesnt mean total perfection during performance. sudden stage fright or freakout will ruin all ur hardwork. where as engineering?? jus sit and study, and prepare presentation.wat's so hard..yeah..the formulas and maths and physics are hard..but..haih..duno la..music is sth very impromptu. if it's in u, it's in u. if it's not..it's not. haih...which shud i choosee???? cant i jus study both?? haih...

my death..

my dear friends, you've seen the jovial eli, the crazy eli, the angry eli, the sad eli..but have you seen eli died????


my dear friends...have you ever seen people die on a piano ? well, i've died. i died for love. for cow. My soul has drifted away. leaving me in the world. I'm a corpse, walking among humans.

this is how i died...

RAMBO

today, i went Midvalley with jason the cow, watch a real violent movie...RAMBO. When i told meng jin, he say, why u watch these type of violent movies one?

[S][A][M][P][A][T] MJ says (11:00 PM):
i'm quite surprise you watch all these shows

[S][A][M][P][A][T] MJ says (10:58 PM):
so violent also can watch

EVIDENCE.

i look so angelic meh?? hahahhahhhaha..i'm very violent also ok.... actually, we wanna watch jumper one..but, i felt that..i so sin ku only reach 18, of cuz watch sth that 18 years ago i cant watch in cinema laaaa..watch 'U' pula...of cuz watch sth like..18PL or 18 SX maaa

RAMBO is not bad la..this is my first time watching RAMBO. the RAMBO guy was the guy who acted in 'blades of glory' whom i dislikes...ceh.. RAMBO 4 is damn short. 1 hour only. this is my first time watching such a short movie. my gosh.. and it's super scary..the way they kill ppl..shoot their heads off, my goodness..how can ppl be so violent?? haihh...

it's not bad laaaaa but.. too short and too violent. i wont watch it again, even if i'm given a free ticket.

rotten elizabeth

currently..i'm not doing anything. from jan til june, i hv been and will not be doing anything. jus rot at home...all cuz of singapore..if not, i'll be in UWA, australia d...i only:
1. eat
2. sleep
3. play piano
4. play violin
5. watch tv
6. call my frens
7. sms
8. cook
9. online
10. go out with frens

this is so boring man... go out with frens til bored..until i jus wan to stay at home. but when i stay at home, i feel bored..... BORED...

wat can i do?? i cant teach music. who'll want a teacher who only teaches for 3 months? haih.. now i'm aiming for the HSBC piano competition.. i practice piano everyday only. i hv noting else to do man..gonna get crazy. ...

i miss S6 like hell.....the times when i sing with meng jin, dance around in class, strip dance for yi qian and janet, shout and laugh and scream with janet, seeking jin lin for consoles and help when i meet probs.. i miss them like mad..really...i love S6. i love taylors college!!!!! it's the best college. i miss mr. john..and mr. tsung whom i was once madly in love with... hahaha..and mr. lee who always zat me....gosh..will uni be as fun as college?? i hope so..
my oldest msg in my inbox was a msg to jinlin..we're discussing bout our next day's outing after our final spec maths paper. CAN U BELIEVE IT!!??it's so many months ago!! our last day of our final papers!!!! then, there's a msg to yi qian bout our plannings the next day. GAWSH!!!!! i will not delete those msgs.. i'm deleting all my pictures in my hp, jus to make space for my inbox msgs.. once in awhile, i'll delete recent msgs. i'll not delete my msgs be4 prom... it's memories tat i nvr want to be lost... i miss S6 .. i miss all my college frens!! i miss them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now, i cant wait for uni life to start..i'm so bored!!!! i want to go to Uni!!!! i want to go to UWA!!! i want to go to Australia!!!!!! i jus received my july letter of offer from UWA today. so happy.. i quickly showed my dad. i've booked my plane tickets too.. on 30th of June. Hope i'll really go to Aus.

some kua zhang things to share..

Want to see my house??? under CNY's mood??? this is my house......


hahahhahhhahha..nola..it's not my house la....ok...below lies the truth.....



during CNY, i went to a Datuk's open house. In Bahau. i wish to share some pics with my frens, to show his kua zhang-ness. My aunt said, I dun think this is a house..i tink this is a family's club house.......

ok..to start offf...let's hv a look at his house...the far side with tent is still under renovation..that's another phase of his house.


This is the phase of his house where bedrooms and living rooms and dining rooms are situated. All the bedrooms are kinda small..i'd prefer a bigger one lo...


The dining..i love the table...but, i'd prefer a higher and longer one..look at the stairs....it looks..soo.....open air..
Let's have a closer loook at the table..gosh..it's decorated like tat..like..hotel or some..lounge..
This is the corridor that links the living area phase of the house and the party area phase of the house..there's a fish pond in the corridor..it kinda smells...my bro complain like hell..hahha..



ok..now..let's look at sth kua zhang..then, u'll know wat i meant by kua zhang...

this is the side steps to his main door..
let's hv a closer, CLOSER look.... read that sign.... my gosh...do u need this in a house????
now, let's look at the dustbin...hahhahhhahhha....cute ler..

look closer now.... closer...the carpark......


some menteri-s came that day...lots of police..and a row of police cars.. the Yang di-Pertuan of Melaka also came....



the Yang di-Pertuan of melaka is the one in Yellow..

the meaning of my name..

What Elizabeth Chua Sue Huey Means

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Kl Pac pianist audition

I went to KLPac today for the amateur pianist audition for the ‘spring celebration’.

KlPac's the building behind me.. Gosh!!!!!! I was scared like hell. No confidence at all..i did not have enough practice..therefore, not well prepared at all!!!!!! I got to know that I’m accepted into the audition last minute! i thought I cant make it thru cuz when I applied, they told me, they have to compile all the forms and choose from them. CHOOSE!!! I was like..ok..i can give up liao…so, I din practice..went shopping and have fun with frens..when I got back that day..checked my email..found that I was accepted!! I was not happy..but scared..i was thinking..how to go audition without practicing?? But I was scared I’l be blacklisted cuz I’m aiming for the coming piano competition there..wat if I ffk them, and the blacklist me, and dun let me attend any other audition or competitions?? Sei lo.. so, I hv no choice..die means die la..jus hope I wont meet anybody there la..i play like shit….

Yesterday, I played the whole day. The song was not easy. Shepard song. I practiced the whole day until my finger tips sore and was pain like hell…but I could not stop!! I must continue ! I must!!!! If not..sure die during audition one….i called Aaron lo..he went to the strings audition last Wednesday. He told me, there’ll be ppl seeing u play one..those competants will be there listening to u..i was like..wat the hell..shit………..ppl see me play sth that sucks??? Sei lo…

Today, I went..with no confidence..i can only use expression to balance up all the mistakes that I will make.expressions are my one and only asset left..

As i stepped into Klpac, the music of our audition song, Shepard song greeted me. it's was played beautifully..compared to mine..gosh...Lots of ppl ffk ler..hahah..i was brought forward..i was actually at 3.05 pm..mana tau..all those ppl ffk, I went in at 2.30pm. aiya..jus cincai laaaa…I went in, try the..digital piano..and started playing.. at first was ok..i tried to express my very best. I saw Bryan, the judge , also the conductor for the orchestra nodded when I started off…i felt better...then, comes the killer part..the part where I always mati enjin one..at home, on my own normal piano already I mati enjin, here on that stupid clavinova, I lagi mati … I hate digital things man..touch and feelings are different. How to play!!!!! Yor… haih..watever la..now, I’m looking forward for the coming piano competition. Hope I can make it to the semi-finals.

i've analysed the reason of my failure.. :
1. not enuf hard work. only one day's practice.
2. it's not a piano but a clavinova
3. it's a chinese song...i dun like..no mood to practice also..

then, i went to the Koi park just opposite KlPac. the fishes there are very beautiful and fat. hahaha..ya...FAT. and a lot too..

do u tink this is alot????

how bout this ???
see..fat lerrrr....feel like eating...


there's a very big spider web as well...zoom in the pic below to hv a good look at the web..the view here is very nice too..it's in Sentul West.